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Name: Maeben Joy
Birthday: 9/5/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: GOD, Music, Talkin'.. on the phone, online, in person.. dammit.. whatever i love talkin!!, Hangin' out with friends, learning cool interesting things.. Etc.
Expertise: BEING ASIAN!!! Being Carol's friend, making fun of Mary, being a smart ass, and annoying the hell out of people.. LoL.. JUST KIDDING.. well maybe not.. but yeah.. I'm a Great Listener.. but I'm more of a talker.. haha =)...
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  texaznpinay
Yahoo:  pinay_ligaya
Member Since:
7/8/2004
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| Yeah, it's been a while since i've written in this thing. I've been debating on whether or not to shut it down cuz yeah, I dunno.. it's kinda interesting to go back and reread some of the things i've said. See how much I've grown and changed.. Only, it's kinda hard, because at the beginning i didn't really use this to vent.. i wrote just normal things and i guess happy thoughts, because I didn't want people who read it to think there was something wrong with me, or that i was angry at the world. I just wanted people to think that i was one happy person with nothing that bothered me. Then as days and months progressed, i started writing about the way i felt. how my day went, and what my mood was. I mean, I thought what's like without it's ups and downs. People can relate, ya know.. maybe there's people who i can reach out to, or that have gone through what i have. But then, the only time I started writing was when there was something bothering me. I used xanga to vent. Let me tell ya... it helped.. hell yeah it did. But when i think about it.. and when I look back and I read it... I'll be honest.. I'm not proud of it. When i read it and i think about what other people thought, the way I wrote, the things i said, would obviously make the reader thing i was unhappy and miserable. I dunno.. it's hard, what can i say. sometimes when all your focus is on is the bad, we forget the good that came with it. I think over just this past year I've changed... a lot.. I'm not gonna say I regret any of the entries i wrote in the past. I can't help the way I felt, and yes, maybe some of the things I said, i shouldn't have said at all.. but honestly I don't regret any of it, because when i look back and think about it now. I realize how much i've grown as a person, and that i can only learn from my mistakes. I've kinda stopped using xanga. I use it as a way to keep up with friends that i havent seen or talked to in a while. I hope everyone's doing well. | | |
| Yeah, it's been a while since i've written in this thing. I've been debating on whether or not to shut it down cuz yeah, I dunno.. it's kinda interesting to go back and reread some of the things i've said. See how much I've grown and changed.. Only, it's kinda hard, because at the beginning i didn't really use this to vent.. i wrote just normal things and i guess happy thoughts, because I didn't want people who read it to think there was something wrong with me, or that i was angry at the world. I just wanted people to think that i was one happy person with nothing that bothered me. Then as days and months progressed, i started writing about the way i felt. how my day went, and what my mood was. I mean, I thought what's like without it's ups and downs. People can relate, ya know.. maybe there's people who i can reach out to, or that have gone through what i have. But then, the only time I started writing was when there was something bothering me. I used xanga to vent. Let me tell ya... it helped.. hell yeah it did. But when i think about it.. and when I look back and I read it... I'll be honest.. I'm not proud of it. When i read it and i think about what other people thought, the way I wrote, the things i said, would obviously make the reader thing i was unhappy and miserable. I dunno.. it's hard, what can i say. sometimes when all your focus is on is the bad, we forget the good that came with it. I think over just this past year I've changed... a lot.. I'm not gonna say I regret any of the entries i wrote in the past. I can't help the way I felt, and yes, maybe some of the things I said, i shouldn't have said at all.. but honestly I don't regret any of it, because when i look back and think about it now. I realize how much i've grown as a person, and that i can only learn from my mistakes. I've kinda stopped using xanga. I use it as a way to keep up with friends that i havent seen or talked to in a while. I hope everyone's doing well. | | |
| Ah! So.. 2 days of school done and over with. How nice. Well yesterday all I had was English and Microbiology. I'm looking forward to english.. same teacher so it shouldn't be too too bad. As for Microbiology.. ha! That's a night class from 6-8:50.. i dunno what I'm gonna do, because I don't have the attention span to sit through a movie.. I don't how I'll be able to sit through a 3 hr. lecture. Oh well.. so far so good.. yesterday I took about 11 pages worth of notes.. what fun.
But today classes were alright.. not long at all. It was all intro today and what the class was about so not to shabby. First I had Sociology. That was interesting. I think I'm actually going to enjoy the class so I'm kinda looking forward to it. The other class I went to was Woman's Studies. Ehh.. I'm not sure about that one, I can't say I'm looking forward to it. But we'll see.. Guess I can't really judge the class. Anyway after class, Nancy, Danielle and I went to eat lunch.. and then afterwards, Nancy, Gretthels and I went to Wal Mart. Ryan called and told me he and CB were on their way to come visit me! Aww!! So sweet, I was kinda surprised. So yep.. we went to the mall and then we rented 40 yr old virgin and watched it here. Then they left and that's about it. So yeah.. long day.. time for me to write my english paper now :)! | | |
| Hey hey! I haven't written in this thing since last year. LoL.. man, so yeah, it's been a while. I don't have much to say and I really don't know why I'm even updating, cuz it's not like anyone reads this anymore. But yeah, this weekend was great. I have great friends , a wonderful family , and an awesome boyfriend . That is all I have to say about it. If you were there, that's wonderful, you know what I'm talking about. And if you weren't, aww.. that's too bad ! Haha.. ok, well I'm done. | | |
| Heh.. I think I can honestly say.. I'm ready to go back to DENTON. In fact.. I think I've been ready to go back since I got here. It seems like there's somethin' about this town that makes me "miserable." Everything has changed.. it's not the same anymore. And yeah change is good .. i like change.. but not this kind.. I dunno.. whatever. I'm just ready to go. I'm happier in Denton. To think I was so excited about coming home and getting to see everyone. Ehh.. not so much. I got so worked up for nothing. But I guess it doesn't matter anymore. It's funny how they say.. when u come back for the holidays.. u find out who your "real true friends" ha.. yeah. Let's just say I'm definitely not looking forward to comin' home at Christmas. I mean yeah.. getting to see my parents is great.. I love them! They'd prolly be the only reason why i'd want to come home. | | |
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